Oh Cece, I just woke up and saw that you have been in distress. I am so so sorry. Disconnection is truly awful, evil. When my close family member disconnected from me about 12 years ago (since reconnected), he wrote me basically a form letter saying that since I had disrespected his church, he was cutting off contact – and that I should never try to contact him or have my kids contact him. I was so hurt for so long, this was such a total rejection. So personal. So painful. I cannot imagine the pain and grief if it had been my child. My heart is with you, warm thoughts and light surrounding you.